I've been looking...
High
and
Low
for a new place to be.
To fill you in, I recently gave myself a 'gap' year.
That is normally the significant year after ending one school before entering another......and although mine did not correlate with formal 'schooling'.....but a significant change in life circumstance....
a 'timeout' seemed appropriate.
A friend or two suggested mine could be as long as I wanted.....gap 'YEARS'.....they suggested might be in order.
And that may be true, as this time in the high desert punctuated with many trips,
is growing into a gap 'Year and a Half' come December.....
actually more if you start from the beginning of this blog story...
In July of 2011 I took the leap.......put all my 'stuff' in storage in Michigan.......and drove to a dusty little town in the middle of New Mexico........to rest........and drink in sunshine and heat.......and the deep sense of history and Spirit that permeates this landscape.
The biggest struggle I have encountered is this concept of 'where' do I belong? I've been spending a lot of time between the little town and the bigger one more than an hour's + drive away. I have not put roots down in the little town as I had expected.
So with the winds of winter.......I'm expecting to be blown in another direction.
When one is not laden with their 'stuff' (OK, belongings)......
I suppose one can more easily move around.
(although my bags are getting heavier, as I'm prone to collecting things along the way)
One of the biggest challenges I've encountered is with the way I work. I am process oriented ....and unlike some of my friends who seem to be able to work on the 'go'.......I need a place to sit.....a table and lots of supplies and tools to busy my hands. And although I have been able to find a place to sit in my little casita.......and the shared 'shed' I call my studio......I feel like Goldilocks.......the place has been too hot, or too cold.......or too small.......and I have not found anything yet that is
"JUST RIGHT"........
But now I am looking...........and for the months of November and December........I have decided to land here.......it is a bit far from my little town........but I am working out the logistics......
and for now.....
it seems......
JUST RIGHT
gosh , i think it looks just right for me tooooooo!
ReplyDeleteYou are my hero.
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ReplyDeleteI don't see any reason why you need to hurry this process of finding a place to plunk down. I think it's good to try on lots of different places and see how they resonate with you. Perhaps this is a time to just wander around. Can you imagine how many woman would love to have a little nomadic adventure in their lives? Sooner or later, you'll trip over the perfect place and I think you'll know when you find it. In the meantime, you've got lots of fun things you're doing. I say, just enjoy yourself.
ReplyDeleteRoz....YOU can work here too. Leslie....just so you know a hero cries too. India....not quite. Lori....wow. Thank you. That thought crossed my mind too (when the 'shoulds' were not so loud).
ReplyDeletei'm guessing when the place is right you will know it. that you're open to it and willing to go is brave. i hate disruption, sometimes i miss opportunities. i like reading that you're doing this, i hope it's nourishing in the way you need it to be.
ReplyDeletei could land right in that work
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kathyd
As a good friend told me once recently, "If you don't know where you are going, it doesn't matter how you get there."
ReplyDeleteAnd as the designer Bruce Mau says in his "Incomplete Manifesto For Growth": Start Anywhere.
I think you have.
Thank you all for your comments......you have no idea what your support means to me.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is racing .... What a wonderful idea ... a gap year. I take my hat off to you, I really do. As Lori says... just keep on wandering .... and tell us all about it .... so that I can live vicariously through you.
ReplyDeleteOoops.....as I said....I think I really started this gap 'year' before I started this blog......to keep going? gosh...the thought IS swirling....I'm so glad you're on this journey with me!
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