"NO"!.......

Not to be a 'Debbie Downer'......

but I've had a rough week...

and was feeling pretty sorry for mySelf....

I am fine, so don't cry for me....

as the song goes....

But I have hit a wall.  

Actually I've hit the wall over and over and it has become very apparent that I may need to find the way around it,
or head in a different direction.

It seems like

"NO"

 is all I've heard for the past few weeks (OK, months, or more)......

it starts out in a strange way......

I won't get too far into it, but nothing I seem to try or want to accomplish in the way of moving out of my living situation and moving forward into a more creative setting seems to open it's arms to me.

I  found a new place to live.....

affordable and sparking new

"NO" they said...after many meetings...

(I need to have more pieces of the puzzle in place before I'm 'allowed' to pursue that place and path.)
  

OK, I thought, I'll just get a
great studio,

and once again put what's left of my personal comforts in storage...and do that.

And a great studio space I found, complete with atmosphere, comfort and storage......

and then once again....

"NO."

I could not have that, even with a fully funded checkbook in my hand,
 another was there just before me...
and I was assured I'd be put on the 'top of the list'.....

as I am 'well liked' and most seem to want me around them.

(I would have a picture of that place except my camera was among the things stolen from my car this week....
along with my little statue of Ganesh!)

But as it goes......everyone seems to want 'me' around, but no one wants my accompanying 'stuff'....

What's up with the 'stuff'.....?

Am I meant to be a monk?

 Hmmmmm.

 And that is what I prayed for last weekend.  

To accept

'what is' 

with Love....and Grace.

and to top it all......

my refuge of metal....

that was this......

has gone to this.......

as a renovation at this studio and...

 more change are in motion.

Once again I packed up that part of my life.

so as I was feeling very sorry for mySelf the other day.......

on my way home to the middle of NoWhere, New Mexico.....

out my car window...

I saw this...

;-)

Rebirth, renewal........

"The spiritual journey is a creative journey. It's about birth. It calls us past the boundaries of convention. It tests our willingness to see life in a new way and our courage to express it: for new ways of viewing life in the face of what is commonly accepted. We become new, and in this ongoing birthing, we bring new forms to life as well. Life itself has become a creative act, full of vitality and richness and passion." --- Anne Hillman, from Dancing Animal Woman

I was so moved by Donna Watson's blog post.....titled 'Renewal'.....which you can find here......

because........ 

this quote from that beautiful post......

seems a validation of my journey......

On making things............

On Friday.........with many other things on my plate......I was compelled to make

these earrings............





They are made of copper, liquid enamel and sterling silver....


and they happened like magic.......as though my fingers were guided by another force........




Creativity is a funny thing........after a long drought.......feeling overwhelmed by life..........not creating much........I am suddenly bursting with creative energy.........this is happening as I contemplate a move which will surely create some more distraction........

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